I could say new year, new look, but this one is a drastic one …so perhaps it deserves a bit more explanation. A quote I read recently sums it up nicely. “One day someone is going to hug you so tight, that all your broken pieces fit back together.”
Since I started in SL, I have lived many different lives, avatars created with components of me, but never all of me, to keep my heart and emotions safe. There was Minx, my flirty, scrappy warrior pixie; Ciara, my spiritual gypsy witch; Terelyn, the fallen angel conflicted about her place in the world; Mika, my magical child self. And of course, you’ve all known Nyree, my professional model working self. You see, by splitting myself this way, I could still be part of me that I knew, which gave me some level of comfort, but at the same time, because it was only part, it didn’t matter so much if that one part was accepted or rejected.
I once had someone tell me if I could ever bring all my avatars together, then I’d be completely me. I could see the truth in that, yet was never willing to do so, not for myself and certainly not for any SL lover. Until, I met someone on my Princess of Play avatar, Shadow. Shadow was me, at my most relaxed. And I guess because of that, and the fact that I was truly looking for a friendship, not expecting a romance, my guard was down…and somehow all of me came together without me even thinking about it.
When you find someone who loves the whole of you, and makes you feel so safe and valued for who you are, it is funny how the pieces merge together. So, Nyree has taken on Shadow’s look, and for the first time, Nyree’s look hasn’t changed due to insecurities, but rather from a sense of freedom to be myself, with all my foibles. I am living fully as me for the first time in SL, doing the things I love, being with the people who matter, and able to flirt, scrap, play, explore deep, soul-searching topics, work and live my magical SL life. Dedicated to the one that brought all of me back together again, and gave me all of him in the process. All of Me – John Legend.
On Nyree:
Jacket: ISABELLA MESH LEATHER JACKET creme – shine by [ZD]
Skirt: Giles ruby – ColdLogic
Shoes: Pointy Strap Heel Red for Slink Medium Feet – ISON
Ring: Indonesia Ring – Sajahan – Finesmith
Hair: Celebrity Skin Dark Blondes – Exile
Pose: Pouffe in Red Ottoman (multi-pose) – Circa Living
On Dilip:
Jacket: JONAS MESH PEA COAT grey with rollneck sweater – sharp by [ZD]
Pants: MESH SUIT PANTS black – sharp by [ZD]
Shoes: Elegance Shoes black – Scarpa
Hair: Dura Boy 36 – Dura
Pose: Arwan – Diesel Works
Scene:
Living Room Set, Table, Lamp, Print Rug, Picture Grouping, Hanging hearts, Ottoman, Window, Valentine Knick Knacks – Luxely Valentine Living Room – Circa Living
Tusciana Breakfast Tray – Circa Living
Vintage Love Manniquin – Circa Living
Illusions Round Wall Mirror – Circa Living
Heart Blanket Red – Dreamscapes Art Gallery
Love Is Framed Pic – Dreamscapes Art Gallery
Toronto Study Cabinet – Bazaar Quality Home
Rose Heart Wreath – A.D.D. Andel
Stockholm Attic Skybox – Barnsworth and Anubis
Couples Pose: #8 Couples Pose – Everglow